dementia praecox

My tears fall in church today. I feel like hugging Cin or just someone; anyone.

Met up with Cin and Drew, ended up watching the play "Rebound-er" (or was it Re-bouncer?) It was a meaningful play; revolves around the theme: 跌倒了就要爬起来，这就是人生。

I admit, I am considered a non-believer in the house of Gods, and I don't feel as relaxed as I've liked to. But the fact still stands that, I believe HE exist. Contradictory? I've like to think not.

无风不起浪。 Does that mean that every listed Deity out there (whatever the religion is) exist? I don't know. Nobody knows for sure. So, I stand at this weird cross-junction pondering what to believe. Because looks can be deceiving, and humans love to use this to their advantage.

I can't even trust myself, what makes you think I can trust something that I don't see; however big the effects is on the lives of the people surrounding me?

That is why I believe in spirits. That is why I am a free-thinker. I am accepting to all religion's preachings because of the basis they preach; to do good. Though it is hard to give my heart to any particular religion.

How can I give so fully to something what I don't have?

Moved I was, every time I enter HIS court. But which HE am I talking about? Do I really know?

And that, is why I did not raise up my hand to accept the pastor's prayer.


P.S: I feel apologetic now because this is taking up a p.s instead of the actual post... Happy Birthday Pei(s)... Yes, you, PC and Yingz. *撒花+放鞭炮*

Labels: Birthday Post, Ponders

One by one, my friends graduated with a degree and every time I look back, I wondered if I could do so too.

Commencement photographer of my brothers. Congratulations. The celebration feast was wonderful as well... Photos will be coming your way soon. Speaking about photos, the cos-play photos are finally sorted and archived. Will I ever grow out of this, I wonder.

Ton night on the 16 to 17 July left me groggy and in need of rest. How come I willing to give up Jack's Place for McDonalds?

Met Cin and RX on the 21st and we chatted. Took picture of "Hashi" too. Restaurant City is taking up my life *laughs*.Supposed house-warming @ Drew's. Pot-luck became Japanese food at a restaurant and ice-cream after. What can I say, lazy? Oh, I can say that... Magnum Gold taste good...

Labels: Foodies, Meet-ups, Ponders

Congratulations...

Now I wonder, when will it be my turn?

Labels: Ponders

At least, that's what I think.
I read the book, and I watched the movie twice (yesterday with Phing again; marathon.) but it scares me to think that I am actually pondering if vampires do glitter.I must have been out of my mind; as usual.
P.S: Marathon with popcorn and chocolate biscuits = love~

Labels: Ponders, Theatrics

In the "Sayings of Han Fei Zi - The Severe Code of Legalist", was this story:

One day, Duke Wen of Jin found hairs on his roast meat. He summoned the cook for questioning.

"How dare you put hairs in my roast meat! Are you trying to choke me?"

The cook replied, "I am guilty of three capital crimes, Your Majesty. First, I kept my knife as sharp as the legendary sword but only managed to sever the meat but not the hair. Second, I skewered the meat and roasted it on the fire but failed to see the hairs. Thirdly, I kept the fire strong enough to roast the meat but was not able to burn the hairs."

He paused then continues, "... But, is there someone in the kitchen who hates me?"

Duke Wen thought about it and called in the kitchen hand for interrogation. He was found to be the culprit and later executed.

The moral of the story: It pays to probe tell-tale signs in a crime. He who benefits from a crime is the greatest suspect.

Why then did I say that this theory doesn't apply? Or should I say it no longer applies? 不知道是人越活越回去了；退化得没道德可言，还是学会了得寸进尺；越来越会耍心机。 The fact is, be it in work place or in real crimes some people still gets away with this. We always say learn from the past.

Are we really learning though?

Labels: Ponders, Rants

Feeling melancholy. Kept telling myself it was all a fling but is it really? I was taking an afternoon nap when I dreamt of her. Bolt upright from the trigger; a sharp rap on the door. It scares me to think she can affect me so... Why couldn't I sleep well lately?

Labels: Ponders, Weirdology

Saw the news of Super Junior coming to Singapore. Starting to miss the old days when they are 13. With Han Geng gone, what will happen to Super Junior M? With Henry back in Toronto and Korean fans still against him and Zhou Mi, can the sub group survive? P.S: Congratulations to Super Junior's 4th Album Bonamana's success.

Super Junior - Bonamana

Ddanddaranddan, ddanddaranddan, ddanddaranddan, ddadaddarabba
Ddanddaranddan, ddanddaranddan, ddanddaranddan, ddadaddarabba

[SIWON] Neon alggamalgga alggamalgga neomu yebbeun miina
Nal michyeotdago malhaedo nan niga jotda miina
[HEECHUL] Nuga jeonhaejweo my baby, to my baby naega yeogi itdago malya
Gidalinda malya (Baby, you turn it up now)

[KYUHYUN] Neon, gatabuta, gatabuta mal jom haera miina
Ni maeumeul gajyeotdamyeon geunyang naneun salmyi winner
[YESUNG] I sesangyi ichiran, ichiran, yonggi itneun jareul ddara
Na gateun nom malya

[RYEOWOOK] Ye male say, yeol beon jjigeumyeon neomeoganda
Eusseug, eusseug, eusseug
[SUNGMIN] Geunyeoneun gangjeok ggeuddeogeobtda
Bbijjug, bbijjug, bbijjug.
[RYEOWOOK + SUNGMIN] Nan eoddeogargga eoddeogargga geunyeomani
Nae gwansimin geol, geol, geol

Bounce to you, bounce to you nae gaseumeun neol hyanghae jabil sudo
Eobseul mankeum ddwigo itneungeol
Break it down to you, down to you nae gaseumi neo, neol gajji
Motandamyeon meomchul georanda (nal barabwara)

Borggamargga, borggamargga, borggamargga na gateun namja
Bonchemanche, bonchemanche, bonchemanche doraseo bwado
Bogobwado, bogobwado, bogobwado na bagge eobtda
Bonamana, bonamana, bonamana (Baby, you turn it up now)

[DONGHAE] Mweol sargga, sargga, sargga, sargga neoreul wihan seonmul
O, michigetda. Saenggakman haedo joahal ni moseub
[KYUHYUN] Listen girl! [DONGHAE] Joahae
[KYUHYUN] Baby girl! [YESUNG] Saranghae
[KYUHYUN] Namani neoreul wihan namja
[YESUNG] Deureojweo bwa neoreul hyanghan gobaek

[RYEOWOOK] Nae mamyi say, aeman taeuji malgo jebal
Ggeudeok, ggeudeok, ggeudeok
[SUNGMIN] I noryeok jeongdomyeon narado guhae
Giteuk, giteuk, giteuk
[RYEOWOOK + SUNGMIN] Nan eoddeogarago, eoddeogarago geunyeomani
Nae jeonbuin geol, geol, geol

Bounce to you, bounce to you nae gaseumeun neol hyanghae jabil sudo
Eobseul mankeum ddwigo itneungeol
Break it down to you, down to you nae gaseumi neo, neol gajji
Motandamyeon meomchul georanda (nal barabwara)

Borggamargga, borggamargga, borggamargga na gateun namja
Bonchemanche, bonchemanche, bonchemanche doraseo bwado
Bogobwado, bogobwado, bogobwado na bagge eobtda
Bonamana, bonamana, bonamana na bagge eobtda

[LEETEUK] Nan deudyeo michilgeoya. Pogbarhae beoril geoya
[HEECHUL] Deo mot chamgesseo geunyeomanyi milgo danggigi
[EUNHYUK] O jinjja michilgeoya Nuga jom malryeobwa bwa
[SIWON] Ireoke himdeul georan geol nuga marhaesseoyaji

[RYEOWOOK] (It's) True, true nae gamjeongeun gal gosi eobseo
Nege majchweo beoringeol neon jal aljanni
[KYUHYUN] How to keep loving you? Naega jinjja nege jaralge idaero nal sseogyeo
Dujima

[YESUNG] Gidarinda Miina!
[SHINDONG] Hope you'll step to me, step to me
[YESUNG] Saranghanda Miina!
[SHINDONG] Bring it, sign to me, sign to me
Hahahaha hahahahaha
[RYEOWOOK] Geunyeoga imi nal barabol
[KYUHYUN] junbiga dwae isseotna bwa

Bounce to you, bounce to you nae gaseumeun neol hyanghae jabil sudo
Eobseul mankeum ddwigo itneungeol
Break it down to you, down to you nae gaseumi neo, neol gajji
Motandamyeon meomchul georanda (nal barabwara)

Borggamargga, borggamargga, borggamargga na gateun namja
Bonchemanche, bonchemanche, bonchemanche doraseo bwado
Bogobwado, bogobwado, bogobwado na bagge eobtda
Bonamana, bonamana, bonamana na bagge eobtda

Labels: Fangirling, Ponders, Sing Along

Recently read an email about this. I guess some people already seen this picture floating around and expressed their thinking over it.

The brief story goes like this: If you are able to change the course of the train, will you change it to the unused tracks and save the three kids? Mind that one kid is playing on the unused tracks too.

Many people will choose to save the 3 kid playing on the railway tracks and forsake the kid on the unused one. Which, I think is totally unfair. Also, many will change their views after reading the email and say they will not change the course of the train. Reason, the unused tracks are not used for a reason and changing the course will endanger the people on the train too.

When I first saw the picture, I thought of not changing the tracks first. Why? Not because I thought of the above reason first. I was thinking more along the line of, these kids playing at the railway tracks need to be taught a lesson, and the bloodier it is, the better the effect. Harsh teachings? Maybe~ But is it really harsh when thousands of lives were involved?

Labels: Ponders

I saw a set of really nice legs today. Not too thin and with gap between, and all was fine until she walked. *Sigh* No one is perfect indeed. Like there are a million things I could think of that I want to change about myself but still, I am not lenient with others. Sharing similar experience with other people only make it worst. Why can't I just sleep it off?

Labels: Ponders, Rants

I figured I should post it here:

Channel NewsAsia - 2 hours 28 minutes ago
Singapore won’t repeal homosexual law

SINGAPORE: Law Minister K Shanmugam has said Singapore will not decriminalise gay sex but the courts have the power to decide how the law, Section 377, is applied. Section 377A of the Penal Code deems sex between men a crime.

A recent ruling by the New Delhi High Court legalising gay sex between consenting adults in India raised questions on whether Singapore might go the same way. Both countries share the same Penal Code, inherited from the colonial British.

In a dialogue with Punggol residents on Sunday, Mr Shanmugam said Section 377 will remain as homosexuality is still not accepted by most Singaporeans.

He said: "We have the law. We say it won’t be enforced. Is it totally clear? We, sometimes in these things, have to accept a bit of messiness. And the way the society is going, we don’t think it’s fair for us to prosecute people who say that they are homosexual."

But he said that while the government will not take the lead in repealing the law, the legal courts in Singapore have the power to decide how Section 377 is interpreted and applied.

Mr Shanmugam, who is also the Second Minister for Home Affairs, said the government will play a more active role in other areas, such as creating ways for new citizens and Permanent Residents to interact with the community.

But he said all parties must also make an effort. "It’s not a quick process. You can’t wave a magic wand and say, ’oh, integration takes place’. It takes many years. And why talk about foreigners? Even amongst ourselves, different races, religions — how long has it taken to get to this stage?"

During the hour—long dialogue, one resident noted that the minister had spoken of affirmative action for Malays five years ago and asked if he felt this was still necessary.

In reply, Mr Shanmugam said the community had come a long way, but clarified that he was not calling for a quota system at the time.

Instead, success must be founded on meritocracy.

Mr Shanmugam said: "We don’t talk about quotas, that’s not our approach. We don’t talk about...so many places for Malays, so many places for Indians, so many places for Chinese. That’s a wrong way to go. It has got to be meritocratic. But assuming 10 people make the cut—off, try and look for some who are also from the Malay community."

— CNA/ir

How long till Singaporeans have the same freedom of being able to be that open?

Labels: News 5 Tonight, Ponders

How can I describe this feeling? A little bit of guilt mixed within something like love but tinted with a little something which causes me sniffles from all the feeling of being cherished and treated well of.

People must think I am an attention grabber, from all my outward, loud, hyper personality. But not many people really know me for me. Maybe I am just afraid to share that much. Like Cindy said in her previous entry, our life is like playing a game. The game of life; where every step we took is like a throw of the dice. Everyone play the same game, and the throws, whether good or bad will bring you to the end. I told her, pray hard that you don’t land in the ‘car accident’ square, or the ‘lawsuit’ one… Like it or not, the ‘throws’ were ultimately made by you, with or without anyone’s influence. I realized that thinking positively is very important, so if I made any depression statements again, please go ahead and shoot me. *grins*. The main point is that the journey is made more ‘happening’ from the people who travel with you and aren’t I glad for those.

The country was recently surrounded by illness, and the news of a great someone dying made me think really hard. Why stress over so much stuff? If we’d only relax, maybe we wouldn’t have done a lot of stupid things that we did. I was once a victim of peer pressure and stress so I know how that feels. I cannot blame it, but I do have to apologized to all the people I’ve hurt in the process. I need to thank all the people who hurt me in the process too, because without them, I would not be what I am.

Why this long speech? Well, partly because I had the time since I am not working today and also because a few things that had been going on made me treasure my friends a lot more. Recently I met my Craig baby at a café and he actually looked at me, did a double take, gasped very gaily and exclaimed, “Ah! Jo! My CD!!!” Never mind that we’ve not met for like seven years and I barely recognized him. Seriously, the whole café’s population was like looking at us then. Oh, and he hugged me. Like a bear hugging its cub, or, a murderer killing his victim. LOL Two hours later, I finally got the gist of his greeting and I was further embarrassed by his crying. Seems random to my topic? Not at all, the CD was Michael Jackson’s Thriller. Craig was so upset that he cried in a public place. Which was really embarrassing, but that’s not the point. The point is, Craig loved that man. I went back after that and got him that Thriller CD. Even though it was a birthday gift from him, but I think he needed it more than me now.

My world was surrounded by Chinese music. Had always been so since before I was born. My Mum listens to the radio a lot and she only knows Chinese. We are what you typically called a Chinese speaking family. English was not even a second language. I know Malay before I know English because my Mum’s from Malaysia. I’ve been singing Chinese and Malay songs before I even heard about English. M.J is not the one that got me to listen to English pop; I had BSB, Boyzone and Spice Girls to thank for that. However, he’s the first one that got me interested in singing in falsetto, and as you’d probably guessed; dancing. Unfortunately, I found out a long time ago that I danced like a cardboard gorilla so I stopped. But the falsetto, helped earned enough to support a kid’s reckless lifestyle back then. She’s learned a lot of life teachings from it too. So she’s grateful for that. Michael was the first to prove to me that there’s such a thing as a female voice in a guy, and vise versa. (That’s what I thought it was called, the term ‘falsetto’ I learned way later when I got into listening to opera.)

Speaking of which, I can no longer sing. The report’s out, I misused my vocal chords and damaged it. I can no longer hit notes like I used to and it made me painfully numb. I cried outside the doctor’s office.

Anyway, back to M.J. I read somewhere about this Jordan Chandler that pissed me off. He accused Michael of asking sexual favors from him. Did I mention I hate his kind? It’s considered betrayal, asshole! I hope you have nightmares, idiot. Another idiot I have to mention, Lori Drew. She should grow up. Using the net to bully someone is childish. Bullying your 13 year old female neighbor is childish. Causing her to hang herself… You are a mother too! What if it’s your child? Poor Megan Meier, losing her life so early; and the judge said, “… tentatively granting the defense motion to throw out the convictions and would render a final, written opinion at some point in the future.” Like WTF. 请还她一个公道。

Onward to another subject that almost made me cry, writing. How long have I stopped? Iwai-san, you are F.T.W.! Can I tell you how much I love you like again? I will continue writing even if you’re the only one to read my works. I promise. Here’s the conversation that got me sniffles. So this extra long entry is partly your fault too. *pouts*I did mention I don’t have many friends, didn’t I? My Mum says that’s good because she can have more tables for relatives at my wedding. *roll eyes* That’s taking it a bit too far right!?! I don’t even have a boyfriend! Like where did the comment come from? Oh, I remember, lots of second degree friends / colleagues getting married. Please don’t ask me when I am going to get a boyfriend next Chinese New Year, or God helps me…

Anyway, I am going out later to have dinner. We are going to eat crabs!!! I love seafood and I think that being a Singaporean means you have the advantage of being in the food haven so you should enjoy all the variety of food you can get here.

Last thing before I go, Girl and Boy Generation is so kawaii!!! FTW as well. Btw, SNSD’s Genie (mini album) is out. I am a happy rabbit and I am signing out~

Labels: Fangirling, Foodies, News 5 Tonight, Ponders, Rants

I did not get to contact Ro. Let me first wish her a "Happy Birthday". That done, I'll like to offer my apologies to Cin. I made her harbor thoughts of murder (her first victim is most probably me.) Now, just let me take time to have sighs of relief.

快点好起来，您把我们吓死了！再出这种stunt,大家可能都会折好几年的命。Talk about being unfortunate. Remind self never to pack everything so full nowadays. You never know when sudden rain falls, and you just lost your umbrella.

Being thankful is a lesson everyone need to learn. Thank God its nothing big and... thanks for giving me enough time. I did not want anyone to flunk because of me. Definitely not one of my best buds. Thank God my brain is working.

Labels: Birthday Post, Ponders, Rants

Recently,我发现我被操惨了。Getting sick of my course. Really, is this what I want? Should I continue and give up on my dreams, no matter how far-fetched they seem to be? Already, I am looking for alternative routes towards my studies direction. Fussy virgo, leaving things undone again; you.

Ponders negativity - habitual skepticism and a disagreeable tendency to deny or oppose or resist suggestions or commands. Does that sounds like someone you know? Am I the one? Thinks rather negatively audience will respond with negatives for negativity results. Was hoping someone could confirm my doubts. Obviously, results states negative due to the assertion of verified information showing no one visits the abode situating at the pits of Styx. Yes I am talking about this blog in case you haven't notice I am being sarcastic.

Had I been willing, this farce would stop the moment I met my Final Year Project Lecturer. Maybe I was pretty objectionable, or it could be the collateral fact that he is inadequate. All I could do is LLST.

Though not all lecturers are like him; I give you that. This semester's lineup is satisfactory. Then again, the schedule is causing a detrimental effect on my brain. Why is there no Lunar New Year in England!?! Do take into account a small percentile of the student cohorte working during CNY. Is that too much to ask?

Complaining because I was being lazy; asides other resentment. May the Gods and Deities study my modules and possesses me during project works, presentations and examinations.

哈哈。如果你看不出来我没有很想笑，我想你应该疯了。

Labels: Ponders, Rants, Studies/Work

My night(day?) ends at 4am. 3 person; and a Hong Kong Cafe. Long chats like the ones I had with 马麻(为什么我们聊把拔聊得那么起劲？) one year... Different topic though. 我们谈了和邻国的关系。

01012008. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Iris!!! 老咯:P Please don't follow 我的埂。我是不会凌晨三点起来上厕所的。(Will shut off my handphone =x) Wahaahaa, me evil right. Slept for 2 hours then, breakfast, ktv... (还有声音唱？*摇头* 频频破音呢。) Poor Eugene hit pillow already right, debriefing at 7am after the concert. So tiring.

然后，和好久不见的 Joleen 美眉来了个 Swensen 大餐。It's time for the body to rest... Right? 就 Blog 到这。Nights 啦!

最后，everyone...

Labels: Birthday Post, Happenings, Meet-ups, News 5 Tonight, Ponders

Oh dear, hell yes. That.... THING I hate is back again. I don't know why, but I can't seem to write anything more. It's really sad. Blocked for 2 whole months! My other job is now totally on hold. Verdant, don't kill me. Please?

Work on hand
Reviews - darn a lot of reviews to be written.
Setting up of characterisation profiles and background
Character Sketch
Story board
Blah... the list goes on and on, for work never ends.

On a side note: The other day, was talking to one of my colleagues about comics and manga. His words made me did a calculation of sorts and thanks to his 'equation', I figured I spent around 5K on mangas? Holy.... No wonder I had to sell my Jordans T-T

Quite a lot of projects (self taken on) to do. Guess I really need to get that portfolio done? So much to do, so little time! Erhm, file my Income Tax? Yupps done. What else? Work out more? lol Another conversations with my colleagues.... Quite interesting as the things we talk about.... Guess I really do click better with boys? Anyway, the talks made me realise how lucky it is to be single again. Wahaha

Wow! I wrote a blog entry just like that! Is my block gone???
(Plot bunny look irritated standing there with a sign saying "Hell NO!!!")

Opps, guess not.

Labels: Being Geek-ish, Buys, Ponders, Rants, Studies/Work

Most of my free time are now spent in 2 places:
1) My bed(my personal place of escape)
2) Trains

Noticed that I saw/heard quite a few interesting stuff on trains... (remember the kissing ladies and the bitches? If not, how bout meeting friends and colleagues?) I mean, since then I've gone, 'Ooo... I gotta blog this...' when I see things happen on train... Here's more encounters:

1) Hmm... Duno how to describe this... :blush: Saw a guy rubbing his... at the linkage section btw door 17 and door 18 raffles place down. His left hand was actually in his pockets and his hands were like *rub* *rub*~ How do I know he's not just scratching his balls? There's a wet spot.

2) Ytd... Ed was going to Toa Payoh for his gathering... Anyway, we were on this train to cityhall.... Think there are some comments bout my attitude towards life bah... Like my opinions on how the people using the train should be more considerate, and how that particular train driver of that particular train we were riding on yesterday will most probably be a newbie as quite a lot of people bumped into each other as the train jerked to a stop (twice) when nearing Newton. I almost knock Ed unconscious... (I guess >_< )

3) I was almost smirking~... Saw this lady this morning as I waited for the train... I was like OMG! She looks exactly like the female version of Rong Xiang!!! She was even wearing (his!) customary white shirt and her hair down... curly... >_< OMG... its female Rong Xiang~

4) Saw Jong Yao on train... lolx But he doesnt seem to recognise me~ -_- We alight @ the same stop but he boarded the CHP bus... My guess is he is working somewhere ard here like me!

Okie... gotta go do critical updates as they are coming in... Wish me more luck in finding my juicy bits to sustain my day ;)

Labels: Generic Day, Ponders, Studies/Work, Weirdology

I'm back on my feet.... Hears some people says finally... Sorry for all the trouble I got some into. Real Paiseh. Anyway, I'm just not myself anymore. Even I don't know why. Days just run on and on while I resentfully tried to catch up. Its not a good job, living.... I will survive. I hope... A little too wounded from all the scars inflicted. They made me stronger, thus I thank the ones who did it to me. Thank you. No more a small child so foolishly thinking about how I could play all day or rest, have fun. Life's a torture, and living it did things to you.
Once heard: " There is no such thing as a perfect human. The reason Man evolve and grow better, if not stronger, is because we want to be more perfect. And as humans, there will always be room for improvement. That's why we are humane..."

MLT2 till 5...

Labels: Ponders, Studies/Work

A beautiful paper rose, (actually a KFC tissue one) made my day today.Remember the blur 路痴 ger? Yapo! :P Jonnana haha long time no see har yes? Mizz that gal so much ;) Here's a report on our day

Deli for my lunch
Chit chat (relationship)
KFC for snack
Chit chat (school life)
And thats when the rose came in. After we exited from KFC for about 2 minutes she handed me the rose she made... OMG! How did she do that? Well, coz she's clever? N when we are about to part for home, she actually surprised me with a magic trick! Not gonna tell ya =p
Its TV marathon after dinner.
Channel U
Mamamiya, 全星总动员 looking for good looking people wearing specs. The Olivia look just like a bung called Oliver. Maybe is her?
Channel 5
Star Search, Extreme Makeover
Arts Central
Lord of the Rings Makings (wow! now i know the author wrote it with ideas coming from WWI WWII, Finland ect... Actually, the elvish he wrote is quite simliar to Finnish tribal language. It make me sad to think that even these languages are almost extinct. (now meaning endangered lah)
Back to Channel 5 again. The disgusting The Critters 4. It makes me sick thinking of it ... *pukes*

Labels: Meet-ups, Ponders, Theatrics

Felt pretty 闷 due to the fact that I am now in class. Can't think of any ideas for the project so basically, 没贡献的过了一个早上。Was in the mood for scribbling into nothingness. That will probably just give me less time for studies and more 写作的坑 to 埋。Whatever, you think I care? I want comments so do visit my LJ.

Re-read Harper Lee's "To Kill A Mocking Bird" and felt emotions coursing through me. The feel is really different from studying it for literature exams. Images of Atticus visited my mind and all I could think of is he's telling me "Try to put yourself in his shoe and walk around in it..." There, my screws are not loose,(not those! I mean the ones that are still there.) I just have someone in mind when that phrase stomp over my conscience.

As a class representative, maybe I should've taken the time to have a chat or something. The words will hurt, no doubt about it. But, if he changes for the better, why not? However, cowardice sunk it's teeth into me before I can escape. Thus the guilt trip now.

HECK! WHY AM I ALWAYS THE ONE TO GET BITTEN!?!

Labels: Bookworm, Ponders, Rants, Studies/Work, Weirdology

Bittersweet story...

A girl and a boy were on a motorcycle, speeding through the night. They loved each other a lot.

Girl: "slow down a little.. I'm scared.."
Boy: "No, it's so fun.."
Girl: "please..it's so scary.."
Boy: "Then say that you love me.."
Girl: "Fine..I love you..can you slow down now?"
Boy: "Give me a big hug.."
The girl gave him a big hug.
Girl: "Now can you slow down?"
Boy: "Can you take off my helmet and put it on? It's uncomfortable and it's bothering me while i drive."

The next day, there was a story in the newspaper. A motorcycle had crashed into a building because its brakes were broken. There were two people on the motorcycle, of which one died, and the other had survived. The guy knew that the brakes were broken. He didn't want to let the girl know, because he knew that the girl would have gotten scared. Instead, he was told the last time that she loved him, got a hug from her, put his helmet on her so that she can live, and die himself.

This is so sweet but so sad.

Labels: Ponders