dementia praecox

We loved her. We still do. I don't care for Taoism, or Buddhism or Christianity or whatever you say. She want it this way, I respect that. She will have it. I am sorry for not being able to learn Hainanese in time to say, "We love you." I am sorry for, not interacting, for not seeing you often enough. I am sorry for bringing worries to your poor soul, a fretting grandmother to a dull grandchild. I am sorry, for not being able to control my tears when you 'walk' away. I've promised to be brave, to smile when you are gone. I failed. My eyes lost that battle. I ask for your forgiveness. You will as least give me that, I know. That doctor though, I cannot say. But, if he pack lies to get away with it, I swear, I will curse him until he meet his end and I don't give a damn about my soul, I WANT HIM IN HELL...

Adults, you are trouble. Please at least open your eyes. There are things needed to be done. Yes! You! Especially You! Unfilial daughter! All that words, for naught! Where are you when your sister needs your support? Off in Thailand! "Working"! Ask yourself, what is Tao? Tao is being filial to your parents, being supportive to your siblings. Tao is NOT running away to work when your sister is looking after 3 children and needs your help to handle after-funeral matters! How can I believe in that Tao you & your Adviser preach when you cannot do what you preach? Forget it. Just dump it on this side of the fence. Like I say, if my family don't do it, who else will?

Labels: Rants

Booked and played. Gather, newcomer... PY! New game, old game, work excuses, betrayal of the house on the hills. TOO DARN BLOODY LOUD!!! I NEED TO SCREAM TO HEAR MYSELF!!! SPOILER!!! How can we play this game without hearing each other plan?

Other than that, I am addicted. When will we go again?

Labels: Being Geek-ish, Meet-ups

I realise:

Ric gets lost easily.
Drew's parents need help. Urgently.
I should not open my mouth when I want to act like I don't know how to drink.
We* (guess who?) love our phone. (Please remember to post the swimming scenes)
Me & Kai On See-Saw... Same weight?
Gene's... erhm.... Oh! Gene's the one who look like the one without hair! *LOL*

Of course the above sentence is the second sentence. The first sentence is...
_____ in the one without hair. Fill in the blank. *wink*

Gene's Dad is uber cool! Really! Wow! I think I just gave him the coolest Dad award!

Labels: Birthday Post, Meet-ups, Weirdology

Met Zan and the people yesterday. Like finally.

Zan --> In AU, just got back. Is late, dig updates out of us like digging bullets from our wounds... LOL

Flo --> hotdog[dot]com!?! Sleeping Enterprise? ~Lady of Mystery~

Ana --> Insurance... Erhm, claims... I know claims! *Did too*

Siti --> Fooled us there. So, anymore housing near them for rental? *hint* *hint*

RX --> Still working, still waiting for Uni, still attached. We need a break. Sighz

Ser --> Working near house, good food at work hor~ Slimming in process?

Pei --> Same old, same old. LOL change your lines! Germany lost! You slim down! (!!!)

Cin --> Erhm, always meet up. No comments. Hmm... Check your multiply pics? *Grins*

Da Jie --> DVD, HDD, Anime, Songs, new hp. Need I say more?

Da Ge --> IBM call center issue? My comment is still the same. I don't know. Germany (Pei), France(Ser), so you take Italy ar.... Then, then.... I take Portugal lor >_<"

Price of meal & drinking session --> $190+
Meeting up with old buddies --> Priceless... (LOL)

Labels: Happenings, Meet-ups, Weirdology

It's bleeding, it hurts.
There's no where to hide. I couldn't run.
Long... long day. Rest, far away.
Bullets, words of responsibilities, capabilities. Or lack thereof.
I got hit.
I am not Duo Maxwell, who runs and hide but never lies.
I do. Lie. I lie, behind the walls of facade.
I lie, in the mess of gore and blood.
I lie, behind my masks of indifference.
I cannot run, there's no where to hide.
I can only, lie.

Labels: Drabbles