dementia praecox

Entertained this morning... Good and bad. I was feeling down these few days but I need to feel better and I felt some other people need to too.

Two nights ago I felt suicidal. We had a couple of high-rise buildings to choose from... but suicide is for losers and my insurance doesn't cover it. I've been working at it; seeing all those wonderful works appearing from all over the world and wondering what it'll be like to be one of that. Then my current BOSS just have to burst my tiny bubble.

I stopped drawing leisurely after I lost whatever that cause me to like drawing after secondary school... that's 10 years ago. It brings a bitter smile to my face when I realised the one who encouraged me to start again is now no longer by my side.

Arvin, I missed you.

Picked up the sketch-pad again recently cause I dreamt of you. I have to continue... Because it's you.

Labels: Rants, Studies/Work, Weirdology