dementia praecox

We loved her. We still do. I don't care for Taoism, or Buddhism or Christianity or whatever you say. She want it this way, I respect that. She will have it. I am sorry for not being able to learn Hainanese in time to say, "We love you." I am sorry for, not interacting, for not seeing you often enough. I am sorry for bringing worries to your poor soul, a fretting grandmother to a dull grandchild. I am sorry, for not being able to control my tears when you 'walk' away. I've promised to be brave, to smile when you are gone. I failed. My eyes lost that battle. I ask for your forgiveness. You will as least give me that, I know. That doctor though, I cannot say. But, if he pack lies to get away with it, I swear, I will curse him until he meet his end and I don't give a damn about my soul, I WANT HIM IN HELL...

Adults, you are trouble. Please at least open your eyes. There are things needed to be done. Yes! You! Especially You! Unfilial daughter! All that words, for naught! Where are you when your sister needs your support? Off in Thailand! "Working"! Ask yourself, what is Tao? Tao is being filial to your parents, being supportive to your siblings. Tao is NOT running away to work when your sister is looking after 3 children and needs your help to handle after-funeral matters! How can I believe in that Tao you & your Adviser preach when you cannot do what you preach? Forget it. Just dump it on this side of the fence. Like I say, if my family don't do it, who else will?

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